Date: 8/20/2008 10:35:00 AM
From Authorid: 62100
Awww ((HUGGS)) TADA..it's not your fault and your children don't mean it..they're just hurting too..hang in there sweetie!!  |
Date: 8/20/2008 10:37:00 AM
From Authorid: 16845
Ah....This made me cry :( I'm so sorry you've had to go through all this Angi...  |
Date: 8/20/2008 10:43:00 AM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 10657
Thanks Ya'll I'm just venting and I'm sure they don't mean it. It was my son who said you know what today is don't you? Of course, I knew what today was but, he said it's a Wednesday. And, those phrases they use are usually in response to me having to discipline them.  |
Date: 8/20/2008 11:00:00 AM
From Authorid: 44960
(((HugeHugs))) *tears* :( *Spirit*  |
Date: 8/20/2008 11:10:00 AM
From Authorid: 28848
Hugs TA. :(  |
Date: 8/20/2008 11:10:00 AM
From Authorid: 64197
Aww, Angi, I'm so sorry you have to go through this, I wish I could make it all go away. You HAVE come a long way in six months, you are still here taking care of yourself and your children (and us USMer's), trying to make things as normal as possible for your children, you are a strong lady and things will get better, you can do it! Big HUGS to you and your children.  |
Date: 8/20/2008 11:22:00 AM
From Authorid: 4995
(((HUGGGGGSSSS!!!!))) TADA I'm so so sorry. My heart and prayers are with you today. What a heart wrenching piece you have written here. God bless you,sweetie...CP.  |
Date: 8/20/2008 11:47:00 AM
From Authorid: 51876
These are the days being a Mother is hard...Guess I know you a little better now and see how much a real Texan Gal you really are!You and yours have been through so much...Glad you could let it out, being a survivor is always filled with guiltit's good your head and heart are in synch....<hugs>  |
Date: 8/20/2008 11:53:00 AM
From Authorid: 15157
(Hugs)AngiKit!  |
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Date: 8/20/2008 12:03:00 PM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 10657
Thanks again ya'll and Bruiex are you saying I'm allowed to be a Texan again;) |
Date: 8/20/2008 12:21:00 PM
From Authorid: 14314
((((HUGS)))) I´m so sorry for your loss, we are all here for you! God Bless  |
Date: 8/20/2008 12:27:00 PM
From Authorid: 27826
Awwww. :( (((((((Hugs)))))))) *Love ya, Ang*  |
Date: 8/20/2008 1:04:00 PM
From Authorid: 11199
Hugs! Tex there was nothing you could do. God needed him more than you did. It's alright to be sad and angry. but there never was any reason for you to hate yourself. your kids were hurting when tey said those things to you. grief comes out in many forms. hating yourself and him is just part of the process to healing. i know it is hard to sit there and watch him die. i sat and watched my dad die. but i found peace by being there. my dad died on his 72 birthday. it helped to think that my dad got the greatest birthday present ever. To be with Jesus on his birthday. it gave me lots of peace. you'll hae to look for something that wll give you peace. you're strong in body, spirit, and mind. HUGS. i'm here for you!  |
Date: 8/20/2008 1:12:00 PM
From Authorid: 64365
Six months ago today, you shared your pain with you, though not to the degree that you felt it, because how could we know what that was. Because you are a cherished friend here on USM, we still share with you what you are going through. I don't know of a word that will help ease what you go through, but I do have plenty of Nani Hugs...and those I lavish upon you freely. HUGS  |
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Date: 8/20/2008 1:13:00 PM
From Authorid: 64365
boy, I screw everything up! you shared your pain with US..US...not you...sorry! |
Date: 8/20/2008 1:14:00 PM
From Authorid: 61847
Oh sweetie. I wish there was something I could do. I'm so sorry!! i'll pray for you, and your children. *hugs*  |
Date: 8/20/2008 1:19:00 PM
From Authorid: 56359
Many here, including me, Love You Angi. GREAT BIG *HUGS* to You my Friend.  |
Date: 8/20/2008 1:29:00 PM
From Authorid: 8024
it takes alot of courage to write what you have here, I know in my heart that you did everything in your power to prolong that day.. there's nothing you can change about that.. there are things however that you have the power to change and I pray that you have the courage you did this day when moving forward..everyone I know here loves you, including me..c  |
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Date: 8/20/2008 2:23:00 PM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 10657
I appreciate all the comments and they are needed today again thank you! |
Date: 8/20/2008 2:28:00 PM
From Authorid: 11176
awww mom*hugz* it does get eaiser trust me  |
Date: 8/20/2008 2:30:00 PM
From Authorid: 26303
TADA, I wish we could ease your pain. I know you know your kids are hurting, but it doesn't make those words sting any less. Hugs to you.  |
Date: 8/20/2008 2:52:00 PM
From Authorid: 63449
Hurt can make people have a wicked tongue. Just know those words are not meant to be daggers in your heart. Continue to be strong and the hurt will slowly begin to turn into something a little more tolerable for everyone. Bless you & your family.  |
Date: 8/20/2008 3:08:00 PM
From Authorid: 21203
If I could take an ounce of your pain away I would - I have prayed for you. Not for your memories to subside, but for your pain/hurt to lessen. I cannot put myself in your place - I cannot imagine. I do know how to be a good friend and if EVER needed - I am here. God Bless you and your family. illy  |
Date: 8/20/2008 3:31:00 PM
From Authorid: 62881
I don't know what to say...all I do know is that the tears are rolling down by face as I read this. I can actually feel your pain. There is nothing I can say that can make things better...even though I wish there were. Just know that the wounds of the recent past are still fresh within you and your children and nothing but the passing of time is going to help ease it. It will always be with you but it eventually after enough (or more) time has passed it will be easier to bear. Just continue to take one day at a time and love each other. God bless you and your children. I am here for you if you need me.  |
Date: 8/20/2008 3:40:00 PM
From Authorid: 36901
((hugs))  |
Date: 8/20/2008 4:01:00 PM
From Authorid: 21435
They don't really mean it, Angi. We all have our own way to deal with grief. (I just now see that you've already said what I was about to.) Take care of you, sister.  |
Date: 8/20/2008 4:29:00 PM
From Authorid: 30747
That was so heartbreaking. I can really feel your pain hon. *hugs*  |
Date: 8/20/2008 4:30:00 PM
From Authorid: 42945
{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}} Angi for you and the kids hun....  |
Date: 8/20/2008 5:50:00 PM
From Authorid: 7830
:( *hugs*  |
Date: 8/20/2008 6:10:00 PM
From Authorid: 64123
I'm so sorry for your loss and your pain. Much love going out to you and your children and please remember, they are grieving too and would be lost without you no matter what they say, chin up. *hugs*  |
Date: 8/20/2008 6:42:00 PM
From Authorid: 5301
...you must be living in your own private hell today Angi. Memories like these will take a long time for the pain to fade, if it ever does. All my best to you and the kids.  |
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Date: 8/20/2008 7:29:00 PM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 10657
Thanks again Ya'll It's almost that time so yeah |
Date: 8/20/2008 7:52:00 PM
From Authorid: 21839
Angi, I can't say I know how you feel, I do to some degree. Its not your fault, there are so many what ifs that could have been applied to Crash and he would still be here today... God wanted both of them home with him. We all hurt & will always hurt. I wish I could take away your pain but I can't. I am here if you want to talk.. May God wrap his arms around you & your family during this time...  |
Date: 8/21/2008 12:51:00 AM
From Authorid: 53909
*hugs My Angi*  |
Date: 8/21/2008 1:56:00 AM
From Authorid: 18928
Angi I put off reading this post for a bit because I knew it was going to make me sad, and it did. And now I don't have the words you need to hear. Please know that as the primary caregiver you didn't end his life, but made in bearable and better in his final days. I love you Angi! <3  |
Date: 8/21/2008 3:47:00 AM
From Authorid: 53558
(((Hugs)))...  |
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Date: 8/21/2008 5:21:00 AM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 10657
Thanks all of you that messaged me yesterday. I hope it didn't seem as if, I ignored any of you as I just handle grief a little different. ((HUGS)) |
Date: 8/21/2008 8:16:00 AM
From Authorid: 55297
I didnt get a chance to reply yesterday, but I am replying right now. My papa died of esophegeal cancer, in 2002. My mom and ehr sister were taking care of him that night, and when they gave him the medicine as they were supposed to, every two hours, death came calling alot quicker. You see, he was diagnosed in 2000 and wasnt supposed to live more that 3-6 months, yet he lived almost 2 1/2 years past what they thought. He was holding on, he passed away Aug 30th, 2002. He waited past my moms birthday and my nanas and some grandkids birthdays. He was ready to go, he said. So the medicine was given as perscribed and he passed away. I dont understand what you are feeling, but Ive felt something similar. My thoughts are with you and you didnt cause his death, the sickness did, you made him comfortable. Much love my dear.  |
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Date: 8/21/2008 8:18:00 AM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 10657
Heavenly Poet thank you for sharing that story with me I know it must have been so hard for you and I appreciate as it did give me some comfort since, you understood what I meant! |
Date: 8/21/2008 11:49:00 AM
From Authorid: 40741
I'm so sorry hun, the death of someone close to you can be so hard... Just hand in there hun, i hope everything turnd out ok for you ((hugs)) =]  |
Date: 8/21/2008 12:15:00 PM
From Authorid: 15677
ok cryin so hard for you....hugs hugs hugs im so sorry sweetie  |
Date: 8/21/2008 12:30:00 PM
From Authorid: 64637
I cannot understand how you feel, my hubby is still around. I do from time to time think about it, and my heart is ripped apart, even if it doesn't happen. Your kids are just as upset as you are. they don't mean what they say out of anger, that is how they are trying to cope, you are so courageous for what you have been through, and may God bless you and keep you strong~~~~MidnightSun  |
Date: 8/21/2008 2:06:00 PM
From Authorid: 63831
im so sorry hun. just stay strong, time heals all wounds. *hugs* my profile is always open for you to vent into. :)  |
Date: 8/23/2008 11:28:00 AM
From Authorid: 998
Awww Dear Angi, I can't tell you how many times I have read through these words you shared with us ... and couldn't fight past the emotions to write a single word. I know it is because we have come to know you as a dear friend/sis/cousin and to some Mom. We care about you so much, and we wish we could do anything to ease this burden and pain from you. Through my recent experience, I have come to know that some pain increases with time. Maybe because we are trying to stay strong for the people around us, at the time of a loved ones passing. We push away all the internal thoughts of just crumbling into a corner for a few weeks. Then days, weeks or months later, we find ourselves slipping into depression and it is no wonder why. I often wonder how we fragile humans are suppose to deal with such pain as loosing those we love. Sowwy for the book here .. and I wish I could be there to offer my shoulder and a huge *HUG*.  |
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Date: 8/23/2008 3:58:00 PM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 10657
Aw, Venting seems to do the trick most days:) But, the person I vent to must be on vacation lol;) |
Date: 10/17/2008 9:15:00 AM
From Authorid: 62901
That is the saddest thing I've ever read on here. *hugs* I know this is an older post but I wanted to tell you how sorry I am that you and your children had to go through this. May I ask, what was wrong with him and how did he pass? If you ever just need to talk or vent to someone, you can talk to me! *hugs*  |
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Date: 10/18/2008 8:30:00 PM ( From Author )
From Authorid: 10657
Yah he had kidney failure caused by cancer that over took his whole body. |
