What was I thinking? How many of ya'll think this?

I found myself thinking or saying this often. When ever I think back on the decisions I've made. Everything from bad relationships to bad family decisions. For example: I had a boyfriend one time, that I thought hung the moon, he was so cute and in my mind treated me good. I was lying to myself. He was cruel and just hateful most of the time. He cheated on me many times. Sometimes with me sitting right next to him. He did that the last time I went out with him. I think back to that time and say, "What was I thinking? How could I have been so blind? Why didn't I see him for who he really was?" A kid. That was it. We were both young and headstrong. Wanting two diffrent things. Unfortuanatly, it took tragedy for me to see just how controling and blinding he was. I lost a baby at the age of 18, he blamed me for it saying I murdered it, then spread it around his school and it eventually made it to my school, we went to diffrent schools. It was horriable and it was traumatic but you know what? I'm alive, and I have two wonderful children, a loving, hard-working husband who is NOT perfect. Which makes it perfect for me. What was I thinking? That I'd find a perfect man? File that under never! Hey it was a learning experience I thank God for those. As far as family desicions my husband and I thought that it would be a good idea for him to join the army. He did, I was 8 months preganant with our 2nd child when he left for basic, it was important to him, I wanted to give him a chance to live out his dream for a better education, and a better job that he liked. It was a mistake, he missed the birth of his son, and the first 5 months of his life. What were WE thinking. He got out after AIT. Thank God. So the thing was, when we weren't thinking, God was. How many of ya'll have had "what was I thinking?" moments. Just something to think about. Puts things into perspective, I think. Angel2001

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